Word of the Year
I sit here at the kitchen table with a steaming cup of Numi’s breakfast blend tea on New Years morning. All is quiet in the house, for the time being anyway.
New Years Day gives me a feeling of being overwhelmed and lazy simultaneously. The endless possibilities of the new year, the exciting goals to achieve, places to visit, relationships to strengthen, is at once amazing and crippling. There is so much to do and plan that I feel rooted in place, overwhelmed with the idea of beginning.
If I’m being honest with you, this is not an unusual feeling. On just normal days I can sometimes feel lost in the midst of starting and doing that I just sit. I just sit at the table because I’m not quite sure where to start. I have so many ideas, so many things I want to do, oh look… pretty shoes, the light outside the window is beautiful today, I really should start on that project but lemme just do this first, was that the buzz of the dryer?, oh crud it’s dinner time.
Having a creative mind and many hats to wear throughout the day can really stretch and drive the luster right out of me. I can (or maybe can’t?) focus on all.the.things and lose the joy. That’s why for 2019 I am choosing a word of the year. Instead of having five new year’s resolutions, fifteen goals, and a million daydreams, I am choosing a word for the year to be a mantra or overarching theme.
So for 2019 my word of the year is…
Generosity. I am a selfish person. I wear a lot of hats in my life – wife, mother, business owner, volunteer, leader… Each of these roles has different demands and needs. Sometimes I find myself holding on to things so tight, hugging it close to my chest, in fear of if I give it away I’ll no longer have it, it’ll be lost forever. Almost as if I approach everything from a place of scarcity. Time to intentionally change that this year; I want to give generously to each role, not be lazy or overwhelmed, to stop holding back, to dive all in. God led me to each of these positions. I have a place in each of them. I trust in God to show me the way and lead me down the path He has planned for me- whether it be in business, family, or anywhere else. My goal this year is not to approach things from a place of scarcity or selfishness but with an open and generous heart.
Do you have a word of the year? Let me know in the comments below!